It's the most wonderful time of the year!

...or so some people say.  I get really excited for Christmas and Christmas music and shopping every single year and in fact, I say it is my favorite time of year but every year I end up getting stressed out and am broke as a joke.  This year seems to follow tradition.  I have been stressing out because of the end of school and my lack-o-funds to be able to shop like I want to.  Well, I am finished shopping and finished wrapping but still feel like I am not finished...like always.  I am excited to see Ellie open her presents but other than that, I could care less this year.  I guess it is because I am single and fat or maybe because I am broke and living with my Mom.  Either way, I can't wait for 2012.

Well the semester ended and it was not good.  Just as I suspected, I flunked a class and have to re-take it in the Spring.  I am not going to graduate because I overlooked a test and a paper.  What an idiot I am!!!  Oh well, I will finish in May and celebrate then.  I have lied to so many people about graduating last week so I am not going to walk or have a party when I actually finish.  This really puts a damper on me trying to find a job but I will do what I can to find something worth while and I can always fall back on Sports if I have to.

I have been hanging out with BJ more and more lately.  I really enjoy his company but I am not sure if it is because his family is so inviting and his house is so homey.?.?  I think I hang out with him because I am comfortable and I don't have anything else but I also care about him so much.  I hate being a Gemini and changing my mind every other day about things.  I change my mind every day about us; what I want from him, what he can offer me, and where we will be in a year.  He is great but his faults WAY outweigh the good things about him.  I canceled my date with Jenny's friend Zach after I talked to him on the phone for the first time.  He made it apparent that he is not the guy for me.  He told me about his Mustang that is lowered to the ground and cussed too much for comfort.  He also had the raspiest smokers voice I think I have ever heard from a 29 year old man.  As for the PE teacher that Lauren set me up with, I canceled our date too but not because he is yuck, it's because I am feeling yuck.  I am not happy with myself lately and would not want to try to date if I am not happy with the way my life is going.  I didn't graduate, I am heavier than I would like, and don't really have a job...oh and I live with my Mom.  I hope to get things together for my life in the next three months.  I am setting a goal of April 1, 2012 to have a job and lose some of this "holiday weight".  Then I will be ready to date and find and love a man because I will finally love myself.

This blog was pretty depressing and somber but that is my mood lately.  I have been using pintrest.com to find sayings and inspiration to get my mood reversed.  Hopefully it works!!

I am new to this but here goes nothing!

I always said I wanted to start a blog about my life and all of the crazy things that happen on a day to day basis with me.  Well, I did it!  I am going to write down my life stories worth remembering and worth sharing. 


Back in 2008, when I was going on 2 - 3 blind dates a week, I should have started a blog or wrote a book.  I would be rich right now because of all of the hysterical stories and awful dates I went on.  I met Eric in early 2009 and my life became a little more settled down and not many interesting things to write about except for how many fights we were in.  I am now back to being single and starting to date again....well kind of.  I met BJ just three weeks after Eric and I broke up.  He really helped me get over Eric but is still not the guy for me. (I caught him lying)  I am now on the market and ready to start dating again.  As Lauren would say, "Single Suzanne" is back!


I am not in huge need of a boyfriend - I am in need of a husband!  Well, I don't NEED one, I just want one.  It seems that all of my friends are married and have kids and one by one, the single friends are dropping like flies and getting married too.  By the way, Katie got engaged last night.  So happy for them but just another one gone.


About me.  I am 30 and a college student.  I hope to graduate in three weeks.  These last couple of weeks are going to kick my a$$ but it is almost over.  I am really scared that I am not going to pass one of my classes but i can only do the best that I can and that's it.  If I don't pass it, I re-take it in January and do better.  I work at Crown Packaging and Sports Cafe.  Crown is a temporary job and Sports is just one night a week for some extra cash.  I actually like Crown and hope to find a position there in sales.  I can't wait to not have to work at Sports anymore.  I am too old to be bartending and can't stand the obnoxious drunks and old creeps.  I used to run, in fact, I have run two half marathons and a couple of 5k's.  I need to get back into it but have been lazy and busy (these are all excuses).  I plan to run the Rock and Roll half marathon in Nashville in April and the Chicago full in October.  I WILL DO IT!  I am currently living with my Mom and moving in with Shannon soon.  I am stressing out about who I want to get to help me move because I can't afford movers and I have exhausted my friends from moving so many times.  Hopefully I stay there for a while and don't have to do that again...or at least anytime soon.  I lost my best friend, Charlie the dog about a month ago.  I had to find him a new home because I just didn't really have time for him.  He will be missed always.  I love him so much but I had to do it.  One day I will be a doggie owner again (when I am settled and have time for one).


Dating scene for me now is kind of funny.  I hang out with BJ a couple of days a week just for company.  I really enjoy to be around him but will never trust him.  Lauren set me up with the PE teacher from her school and he came to my Mom's party last night.  WEIRD but so fun!  I blacked out at the end of the night but my Mom told me that I was all over him.  Yep, I was all over him in front of my Mom.  Jenny set me up with her friend Zach and we have started texting today.  We will see where both of these go.  Let the games begin!!!